A Jew does not believe alone; he or she believes with the community of Israel; and shares an insight of three thousand years of Jewish history. All generations are present in every generation. The community of Israel lives in every Jew. Every Jew, and the individual Jew, can survive only through intimate attachment to involvement in the community.
the more visible you are, the more you open yourself up to judgment and oppression
hence I guess I subconsciously decided to be so invisible that I don’t even really exist
plus there’s the whole “virtually no one else believes what you believe so why would you ever believe it”
the judaism tag is mostly cheerful/cutesy stuff about Passover which is nice but isolating since I haven’t even observed Passover in like four years
but then there’s the occasional “ah, Easter, my Southern Baptist Aunt openly hates my religion” and “Hitler was demonized by the Jewish Agenda” and like dark shit is out there
I’ve always sort of wondered if my aunt resented the fact that my family was Jewish, but of course I would never verbalize it. like, obviously her brother married my Mom, a Jewish woman, but he’s over a decade younger than all of his siblings, and his dad died when he was really young, so his brothers (one is dead and the other I never see so whatever) and sister may have had an entirely different experience growing up. they probably did, since my aunt is pretty damn religious and my dad is about as apathetic as you can get. and like, my grandfather’s family was comprised mostly of farmer hicks in backwater Virginia, so he could have passed down some sort of prejudice to his kids
like, I don’t think she actively hates us for it or anything, she’s an intelligent woman, but I’ve always seen her as such a kind and amazing woman (kind of my domestic idol ngl) and I just wonder if maybe when my dad married my mom she had to shake off anti-semitism or something. I wonder why that upsets me so much; as long as she didn’t cling blindly to those ideas why should I even care?
god this is so fucked up
Michael’s family is from south florida, and there’s a pretty significant Jewish population down there, so I assume there’s some sense of community. there must be, because his sister was active in Jewish groups all the way through high school and actually won’t consider dating guys long-term if they’re not Jewish
I think before her I subconsciously thought that Judaism was something that everyone (haha, “EVERYONE”) just did for a few hours a week until they turned 13, not like an actual way of life or belief system or anything
is there a word for realizing that you’ve been quietly internalizing stereotypes and prejudices about your own people your whole life and as a result have become so isolated that you don’t even feel like you deserve to be included as a member of that group anymore?????
treat me like a college textbook. spend lots of money on me but never touch or look at me
no. treat me like your favorite book. keep me by your side, touch my every page, learn all my twists and turns, remember every word I say, even the ones that make you cry
*4-second-long fart noise*